On Feeling Defective

Everyone doubts themselves from time to time. And at major life transitions, doubt is an extremely common thing. When a child goes from junior high to high school, they doubt themselves. When a high school student transitions to college, they doubt themselves. When a child attends a new school, they doubt themselves. When you get a new job, you doubt yourself.

But for some people, they have deeply rooted feelings of defectiveness. And it’s not technically correct that they “feel” defective, but rather that they think they are defective and that results in a number of different emotions (sadness, shame, anxiety, anger). For some people, their whole way of seeing what happens in the world is organized around their beliefs that they are defective. Jung developed the notion of a ‘complex’ that was later also used by Freud. More recently, the notion of a ‘schema’ has arisen from cognitive therapy (or Schema Focused Cognitive Therapy), which has many similar characteristics to a complex.

A complex is described as “In Jung’s use of the term, a complex is literally a grouping of parts around some central emotional theme. For example, if you had a leg amputated as a child, you might develop a complex about it. Your complex might involve all the thoughts and emotions built up over a lifetime about the absent leg and the impact it might have had on people’s reactions to you, your opportunities in life, or anything else relating to the amputated leg. Unlike Freud, Jung did not assume most of these complexes were sexual in nature. A complex was due to some twist or turn in life that had a big emotional impact on a person.” (1)

A schema is described as “a mental structure that represents some aspect of the world. This learning theory views organized knowledge as an elaborate network of abstract mental structures which represent one’s understanding of the world. Schema theory was developed by R. C. Anderson, a respected educational psychologist.” (2)

In the Bible, it explains that,

“9(H) That which has been is that which will be, And that which has been done is that which will be done. So there is nothing new under the sun. 10 Is there anything of which one might say, “See this, it is new”? Already it has existed for ages Which were before us.” (3)

Psychologists often lose this perspective on things. But the fact of the matter is, most often, they are just using different words to describe things that have been observed by others. They feel important for their ‘ground breaking’ discoveries, but all they have really done is re-label concepts that have been explored and understood by others. The Last Psychiatrist would call this narcissism.

There are a number of ways that a person may develop a defectiveness complex. Problems with motor skills, problems learning how to walk, problems with a sensory system (such as vision or hearing), learning disabilities, and other problems that may occur during childhood. Sometimes there is an early severe fever that results in motor or learning problems. Sometimes there is an acute physical problem. Regardless, it is something that must occur early in life. What tends to happen is that all subsequent things that happen are filtered through this ‘complex’ or ‘schema’ and are seen by the person as supporting the fact that they are defective.

I remember one woman who developed Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever as a child. As a result, she was uncoordinated and clumsy. So, she was constantly reminded of the fact of her ‘defectiveness’ by bumbling clumsiness. Subsequently, all things that happened in her life were filtered through this belief and frame of reference. She never had the confidence to ask for a raise, or seek a job that was consisent with her true abilities. She never had any luck in relationships because she expected others to discover that she was defective, and drove men away because of this. All of these things were seen as just more evidence for her defectiveness. Now, the person doesn’t usually have a conscious awareness of how this developed. But unconsciously, it influences how they interpret things in their lives, what they remember from the past (their personal failures), and their expectations for the future (continued failure, rejection, etc…).

These difficulties often take several years of treatment in order to resolve. The ‘complex’ or the ‘schema’ is well defended within the individual and extremely difficult to challenge. The individual often develops information supporting their notion that they are defective despite any evidence to the contrary. The explanation that this is a ‘complex’ or ‘schema’ often helps the indvidual come to the realization that their view is distorted based on beliefs that were developed through early life experiences. Once they develop this insight, they can begin to understand and change the ‘complex’ or ‘schema’ that has been so self-limiting in their lives.

Interestingly, the notion of a ‘complex’ was developed by Carl Jung (a psychoanalyst), and the notion of schema-focused cogntive therapy has been expounded by Jeffrey Young (a cognitive therapist). The last name is pronounced nearly the same.

Although I’m not keen on some of Jung’s notions (such as the collective unconscious and archetypes), I’m not one to ‘throw the baby out with the bath water.’ I have to largely agree with the following statement from Jung, “The patient who comes to us has a story that is not told, and which as a rule no one knows of. To my mind, therapy only really begins after the investigation of that wholly personal story. It is the patient’s secret, the rock against which he is shattered. If I know his secret story, I have a key to treatment.” (4) I find this to be exactly the case in treatment with my patients. My mentor likes to quote the old proverb:

“For want of a nail the shoe was lost.
For want of a shoe the horse was lost.
For want of a horse the rider was lost.
For want of a rider the battle was lost.
For want of a battle the kingdom was lost.
And all for the want of a horseshoe nail.”

In treatment, I try to find the nail. Once the nail is found, the battle is won. It’s not necessarily won right at the point that the nail is found, because we have riding, battle, and defense of the kingdom left, but it is the pivotal point around which the treatment revolves. There are many reason’s which people come to feel defective, and the discovery of this reason is the nail which leads to the ultimate success of treatment. And, I think the notion of war is appropriate to psychotherapy. It’s a war against the emotional difficulties of the patient, and often entails numerous battles. Sometimes, the enemy is more easily vanquished, and other times, the battles are ongoing and intense. So, God be with you, in your own battles.

Remember the verse from the Bible, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” (5) You may well need this strength to win your battle. But, I believe in you and the power of God, as I believe in my patients. Fight the good fight, and keep working hard to get to a better place in your life.

(1). http://www.psywww.com/intropsych/ch13_therapies/jungian_therapy.html

(2). http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schema_%28psychology%29

(3). Ecclesiates 1:9-10.

(4). Jaffe and Jung

(5). Philippians 4:13

Long Term Psychological Effects of Learning Disabilities

Many folks with dyslexia or other learning disabilities come to believe that they are ‘defective’ in some way.  They often think they are ‘stupid.’  In my experience, this is not the case at all….they just have trouble with one or more specific tasks, but can be highly intelligent.

You might find this link interesting with a list of famous people with dyslexia.

Sometimes, they will have what I call a ‘defectiveness complex.’  In other words, they interpret most of their actions and things that happen in the world as more evidence that they are defective on some level.  A ‘complex’ has an overiding effect on interpretation of events, and is often strongly defended.  So, someone with a defectiveness complex will reject any and all information to points to the fact that they are not defective, and automatically accept any evidence that may point to the fact that they are defective.

These kind of complexes often take years of treatment and direct challenges to change.  But, they can be changed.  A person can come to believe that they are intelligent and effective in many areas of life, while having difficulty in one specific area.  Again, this takes a lot of challenges to the complex and a lot of evidence which contradicts the notion that a person is ‘defective.’  It also helps to understand the origin of this type of thinking, and how information is filtered through the ‘complex.’

This type of ‘complex’ can develop in other ways than dyslexia, or a learning disability, and I will write more on this in the future.